Amongst all of the elation and excitement over the past few weeks, during the last few days I’ve been experiencing mild but persistent periods of self-doubt. Im sure that I’m not alone in the thoughts that I’m experiencing, which is why I hold such deep value in my ability to speak up. I guess after such a long stint of self peace and happiness, moments like these are almost expected. And writing about them makes me feel very rich. The doubt itself has been mild, but it’s been a very vivid reminder of the past that I have so gladly left behind. It’s been manifesting itself in different ways, but there’s been no disguising it’s attempt to try and cause me to feel less than worthy. These thoughts remind me of a time not so long ago, where the old, vulnerable me would fall foul to the negative powers of my brain. I once succumbed to the torturous, manipulative words that would subsequently engulf my days in the attempt to cripple all sanity and happiness. On most occasions; it worked. The negative thought process soon became an addiction that I loved to hate. The hurtful words were my world; I knew no better. Though such thoughts today cause me to feel somewhat uncomfortable, there will never be a time where I again allow them to penetrate my mental state and rid me of all of the great things I have to live for. Persistence and desire to change my ways has seen my life evolve into something that I will forever consider a dream that’s exceeded all expectation. Time passing has allowed for so much personal growth and I have learnt such a wealth of knowledge as a result of many not-so-good days. My smile today derives from hours of previous unhappiness and inner battles. I fought and conquered an inner war to stand in front of you today with a smile. I guess what I’m saying is that none of this is easy. Whether you’re battling a mental illness, inner demons or even outer influences, no amount of outer love will change the way that you perceive yourself. But if you have a desire and passion to change, you CAN and WILL make it happen. Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will. ️ #confident #BeVocalSpeakUp recipe.