I’ve learning to be okay with having less of a handle on my body, or maintaining a “schedule” to keep it all “together.” Because why should we?
I’ve been sick for a week & I’ve slowed down to notice how it’s made me feel: weaker & not in control. Plus, now I’m in New York for another 7 days.
SO–here we are with a decent chunk of time away from what I’m admitted to myself that I honestly still try to maintain:
• “my” food
• “my” body routines, like exercise
• my daily routines as a whole (like struggling to be present, live my life more, etc.)
how I’m coping:
• Take a step back to really listen to your feelings.
• Notice the tendencies you have
• Be kind to the voices that push us to still be in the same headspace as our struggling minds often take us to.
I’m grateful for these 2 weeks & a vacation where I can’t exercise like I usually do or really do anything I typically do.
I want to practice being outside my comfort zone, and it’s not easy.
In recovery, I’m just working on my relationship with my body and eating, it’s really good that I see barriers I still throw up for myself.
My body is still worthy of being loved if it’s not in the gym and if it’s changing. And I deserve to live a freer life without feeling I h a v e to do anything.
I’m learning to let go, little by little.
And that’s all we need to try to do ✨
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