trauma is a peculiar thing. it can creep up when you least

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trauma is a peculiar thing. it can creep up when you least

trauma is a peculiar thing. it can creep up when you least

trauma is a peculiar thing. it can creep up when you least expect it and shake up your whole being.
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i was minding my own business, shooting the @raphael_saadiq set when he starts playing “soul sista” by @bilalmusic. i thought for a split second that b would maaaaybe show up, but didn’t pay it too much mind. of course, from the side of the stage, here comes bilal, drifting in, joining @raphael_saadiq. i froze. my heart starting beating fast and i was on the verge of tears. i kept shooting for a little bit but was so confused by what was happening that i had to leave the pit and go backstage. .
i found b and hugged him for what felt like an eternity. we both looked at each other like we had seen a ghost.
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the last time i saw bilal was almost 2 years ago in oakland – we were robbed at gunpoint while shooting a video for his album. we didn’t know at the time, but we soon found out that the dude with the gun had killed someone in another robbery just a few days before. to say it was traumatic is putting it lightly. all those memories in addition to still dealing with the robbery from a week ago was too much. .
at @afropunk, we spoke for awhile about life and what happened. i felt a little out of it but i remember b saying “you know, there’s a reason we survived. we were meant for something greater. our work here isn’t done.”
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i’ve learned to honor feelings as they arise, no matter how much they hurt or shake you or feel like they’ll haunt you forever. it’s a process and i’m still working on it. thanks for the reminder, b.

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